Identity

Looking back into a time like no other
A time of nostalgia and pain
Looking back into the broken mirror of the past
Looking back into the broken reflection that I though I was

Looking back into the house I burned down
The ashes staining the walls and the roses dead
This house I burned down; this house was me
A broken house, a broken man, and nothing but ashes

Broken windows and missing shingles
The demons I unleashed; the pain I caused
Wanting to still exist, but it didn't seem that way
She left the house, and I burned it down

Lonely and cold in the world looking for love and myself
Seeking the pleasures that is constantly advertised
Writing how great a time would be when I found what I was looking for
But the world just kept spitting me out; not wanting to hear my voice

Crawling in the thorn bush of my own desires
It was all turning against me; the thought of her too turned against me
To no longer exist and only remain a number
Was I even human, or just a number plastered into someone's memory?

The world turned against me still; danced around the burning house
Come join us and pledge your alliance; surrender to us
Falling deeper and deeper into the darkness... nothing good came out
The world continued to prosper but still sucking the life out of me

Naked, cold, injured, lonely, unloved
Blinded and deaf; I was not even human anymore
The sun grew colder to me, and I constantly lived in hiding
Who I really was or who I thought I was

Living in dark caves of the world to dark allies
The world that said would love me only made things worse
My own name felt gone, and my heart was dying
My body was just flesh; it turned against me too

Alone, cold, afraid, angry
She was starting to look no different; the world only laughed
Eyes filling up with tears as blood ran out of my body
Everything went silent for a while; can I actually cry if I'm not even human?

Then the most amazing thing happened
A light rising up from the horizon of darkness; the rising sun
Hope, love, peace, and joy filled my eyes
The light that I thought I would have never seen

The light whispers into my heart and enters it
My heart beating with a roar of a mighty lion
Majestic and yet so loving; bringing me back to life
Heard my heart crying as it slowly fell apart

I rest everything in the Lord
The only one that loves me for who I am
Reminding me that I have an identity in His eyes; He made me after all
Reminding me that the love I was looking for was here all along; waiting for me

Though I may and will make mistakes, I feel different
The world seems different to me now; feeling compassion rather than hate
The world cries instead of laughing; feeling compassion rather than hate
I have an identity; the proudest moment in my life

Looking at this old house that was buried in the darkness
This is who I was before, but not anymore
Time for me to tear it down and rebuild into something better
With a stronger foundation and a better design

Going beyond who I wanted to be but who I was made to be
To write about how good it feels that is almost indescribable
To be loved by something bigger than me, to have a meaning in life
To have another chance after all of that; everything was all right

My name and who I am has existence
I maybe a common man, but I can do great things today and someday
I maybe only 90%, but in Jesus I'm 100% perfect
I can be, and I want to be

Identity; you and I have it all this time
If you need a friend I'll be there for you like He was there for me
To love you and tell you it's all right
To be a friend after going through so much

Identity; life is hard but it's worth living
Identity; the world cannot determine who you are
Identity; you have one... trust me you do
Identity... it's okay